Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Upside down


Have  you ever felt like you are turned upside down and don't know which is up or down? I have really missed being able to visit you all here in blog land. You don't really know how much it is part of your life until your routine has been turned upside down. Making decisions for other people's life is hard. You second guess yourself that you are hoping it was the right decision. The minutes seem like hours and drag ever so slow you don't want to watch the clock because that makes it worse because you think the hands are never going to move. The tears roll and you have to pull yourself together to be strong even though on the inside you feel emotionally and mentally drained. Finally getting to sleep in your own bed helps some and you have to trust others to take good care of your love one.
Today was the first day that my hubby actually ate two of his meals in the dining room with the other patients. He pushed himself and tried a little more then he probably should plus spending to long sitting in his wheel chair because he was really hurting when they put him back to bed. It will only be three weeks tomorrow since his surgery. They took the staples out today and I didn't think it looked as good as I have seen it look. The urologist took out his cathecather because of the infection. They have changed some medications again so maybe things will change. We have good days and bad.
I know that I didn't get to visit with my son as much as I would have liked, but he did take care of some things for mom while he was here. I have talked to him since he went back and he seems to know when mom needs to hear his voice.
I will go Saturday, eat lunch with my bubby and spend the rest of the afternoon with him. One of the craft shows I was going to do got cancelled. I have one more this Sunday 10-4, but I still can't see how we are going to fit in the room. They are saying there are 16 vendors. We shall see. I know if I don't like how it goes, I won't do it again. My grandson and I had a lot of fun this past weekend. We sold some. My john Deere green pillowcases went fast. I am working on another set and hope to have them done by this weekend.
Hope everyone is doing well and know that I have missed everyone of you. Take care until the next time

7 comments:

Debby said...

Thinking of you. It has to be hard. I can't imagine. I have been their with my parents and it would be alot worse with your spouse. (((((HUGS))))

mariondee-designs said...

I hope your hubby gets better soon so he can be home with you again . I totally understand how draining and emotional it can get. My dad has just recently come out of hospital after 6 weeks in there and I thought life would never get back to normal. Thankfully dad is on the mend now. Hang in there, my thought and prayers are with you.. and your hubby too. take care, Maryann

Vickie said...

Shirley I have prayed for you both. Deep breaths! You can do it. God is with you. =)

Blondie's Journal said...

Shirley...I feel so sad that your husbands progress is so slow, but it is progress. It's hard to be positive at times like this and if I were there I would give you a big hug!

Take care of yourself and keep us updated.

XO,
Jane

NanaDiana said...

Shirley- I am so sorry you are having to go through this with your husband. Aging is certainly not an easy thing to deal with just in and of itself. You add health issues onto that and it really takes its toll.

I am praying for you and your hubby both. I am glad that you and your grandson had some fun at the show and I hope the one this weekend is successful for you, too. Blessings- xo Diana

Dr. Kathy McCoy said...

You and your husband are both in my thoughts and prayers, Shirley.

vicki said...

Shirley-- you are a trooper! All that time spent helping to care for your husband-- and still finding time for your crafts! Healing is such a slow process-- I'm glad you have your stitching to help you through these difficult times. Bless your heart--- I'm still sending up prayers.
Vicki